Alone again...

i've become sharp concrete stone,
i can't believe what it took me ages to create,
is now what its molesting me.

today it was proven real my biggest fear,
senseless being i've become,
Lord! please change the monster i've become.

not able to love, myself nor somebody else,
i hurt, i despise, i ignore.

change me, please change this hatred,
this emotion that i feel against me,
so i can continue, so i can carry on.

today i broked another promise,
i pushed away again a good person,
i guess my destiny is to be alone,
until i can get my things straight.

who would take a damaged person,
a silly uptight being like me.

i try...i try... i try...
yet again... alone again... *sigh*

lame... lame... lame... that is what I am *sigh*