Damaged

I’m scared, I’m broken, I’m damaged, this is all I know, true love is a fairytale, all around me usually takes a bigger cost than I can afford, it breaks me down every day that passes by, I feel alone, I can’t freely talk of what I feel, I wasn’t taught to trust anyone, just me, but I don’t even trust myself.
I want to say so many things, but I can’t go back, I’m damaged, just like a machine, I can’t respond or even know what I truly feel, but I can describe this wounds that is so painfully, my chest accelerates my breathing, my hands become numb, my stomach disgusts itself, my legs tremble and my back aches.

I just want to close my eyes and never wake up, but I can’t go back, I can’t go back, dreams come easily because is all I know, but its not my true reality, I just want to say things I want to say, but I can’t, I just don’t know how.

I’m damaged, I’m sure that I know, I’m scared, this time all I desired to calm down this fear, is a warm presence that it can feel me, soothing presence that my body is desperately looking for, feeling becomes very painfully, I can’t go back, I can’t back, this time I just want to feel you and you to feel me.